"Everything in its essence is light"

*** Contemplation about the wisdom of Anandamayi Ma *** * and peculiar coincidences with God molecules.*

Undoubtedly one of my most profound psychedelic experiences has been my ceremonial encounter with the venom of the Sonoran Desert Toad.

After inhaling the smoke of its burning venom and holding my breath for a few seconds, I passed through a Bardo, of which I do not remember anything but darkness.

Then there was only pure Light and Bliss all-pervading. Everywhere and Nowhere. There was a complete union of observer and observation. No sense of self, no sense of time, no sense of space, no memory, nothing. Just pure Love in the form of Light and Bliss.

Since time was not perceivable, this moment felt like an eternity. Yet, eventually, a strange sense of confusion and irritation arose, as if a forgotten memory was calling. There was something... Suddenly, drops of water in my eyes... Instantly, I felt like the light and bliss concentrated in the middle of my chest. And at the same time somehow instantly all the Mahamaya - the "illusion" yet "our reality" of this plane of existence - unfold.

Slowly I came back to this familiar plane of existence, feeling my body. I opened my eyes and saw the familiar faces of people who were supporting me when I took my first inhale. All the memory suddenly was back.

A soft feeling of bliss and light accompanied me for several weeks, even months. I felt almost weightless, and the top of my head seemed to have no boundary, wide open to the sky and beyond.

Never could I forget this experience, though intuitively I knew I needed to find out how such a state of consciousness can be reached naturally without external substances. This experience was a major milestone on my spiritual journey which reinforced in me a deep longing of my heart to find this eternal light and bliss.

A few years later, I was initiated into Kriya Yoga, and Advaita Vedanta meditation, and I started to practice yogic techniques involving purification through visualization of light. Intuitively I felt that this was a way for me to come closer to what my heart was longing for. Whenever I practiced it felt like a baby version of the memory of my experience. And the more I practice, the more I sense how this light is starting to illuminate even the darkest corners of my consciousness and spreading into all my life.

Soon after my Kriya Yoga initiation, I came across this quote from a beautiful Indian Saint:

"Everything in its essence is light. " - Anandamayi Ma.

As easy as it is to connect to this divine light within, it is also quite easy to lose it in the everyday drama of this Mahamaya. This is a wonderful reminder and motivates me to keep practicing, and step by step getting a little closer to what Andandamayi Ma is teaching; fully realizing this light and bliss, this pure state of love, which is the purest essence of existence, in every being and all-pervading.

Much Love,

KrisTara